Forever alone?

What is it that separates me? Everyone else can have lifelong relationships and I can't even last a month? I mean from this point of view I'm doomed to be a cat lady. I know my main focus really should be school and college. But I want a boy toy. I sorta have one but he's a whore anyway. He isn't into me and I'm not into him. We just like each other's company. I want a guy like Ryan Lochte, he's beautiful. But no guy really interests me, like I'm immune to them. I lack attraction to guys that I live around or near . Phooey.